One really nice aspect of being in the US is that you can watch all your favorite shows when they actually are shown for the very first time ever on TV. So I had really been looking forward to keep following Jack Bauer in Season 5 of 24. However, it took some investigating before I realized on which channels I should watch it. We had over 60 channels at the hotel! It turned out that Fox which is so called national network have a bunch of local partner channels which of course does not even have the word “Fox” in their name. So on channel 14 I found 24 this evening. It was really exciting to see it live on US television. However, to be honest it is better to watch it back home in Sweden 🙂 Why? Because there are no commericials, my projector screen is huge and HDTV is really, really nice.
In the US they sure have tendency to try to combine to different great things in one package. I like going to the movies and I also enjoy a good meal so why combine it into a cinema-dinner. Yes, a restaurant that is also a THX movie theatre. You buy the movie ticket (only 6 USD!) at the door and you are then seated at your table with big cozy chairs. On the table there is a phone that you use to order things from the kitchen. We decided to go for mexican this evening so we got a huge plate of nachos to our table and I drank pink lemonade to that. After a while the movie started and it was impressive to sit in the spacious theatre with a huge screen and almost perfect sound. The movie for the night was Firewall with Harrison Ford who plays a family father who works as head of IT-security at a major bank. It was a true thriller and Harrison Ford did his best to look as he always does: dirty, exhausted, brutally beaten…you know the story…In total a great evening.
One of this city´s attractions is the battleship USS Wisconsin which have been turned into a museum after it was decommissioned. On Friday we had the opportunity of visiting it and it is an impressive ship. It feels like your standning on one of this big ferries that cruises between Sweden and Finland.
I think I had my most comfortable trip over the Atlantic ever. Me and my collegue had a row of four chairs for ourselves and it was so nice to be able to “spread out” your things and not feeling crammed in the seat. I was not that tired and managed to read a lot in my Dan Brown book, see the latest episode of my favourite TV show 24 and do some work.
Today was also the day when I was about to see what the multi-national military environment is like for a transsexual woman. I have been a bit worried about this for the past weeks but I actually was not as nervous as I thought today. I guess the early morning and the exictement of being there made me somewhat forget that. Anyway, I wore my nicest black Karen Millen suit and felt really well-dressed and everything worked just nice. People were very nice to me and used my new name and everything. Felt really good!
Now I have watched SG1 on the SciFi – channel and is using the free broadband access at the hotel.
Today it happened. During the last weeks I have been to the uniform shop a few times to figure out how to get the proper pieces together for my new uniform. It turned out that there were more clothes that had female versions than I expected and there was a new skirt model I had not seen before. Before I have always felt that the clothes did not fit me that good but now when I got the new skirt, jacket, shirt and trousers everything looked much better. I have also been worried about the hat/cap thing. Since I use some “extra hair” everyday I did not really think I got my cap to fit properly. Fortunately I have found a wonderful wigshop here in Stockholm with some really nice staff. So I went there with all my different hats and we tried different hairdos. I was surprised by the result we had after some professional advice from her. I looked very smart in a tight knot and my caps on top of that. So today I made a nice tight hairdo with a black ribbon and choose the skirt and the wolly-polly sweather with ranks together with black high heeled boots. By the way, my uniform is dark blue. It may seem a bit superficial to talk so much about this but all this are small but very important steps for me. Also, to me it is important to not feel “dorky” about my looks and being able to be proud for who I am. Getting comfortable with my look at work is therefore important.
Now, I have just got hand of a second battery to my PowerBook. Hopefully I can borrow it from a friend so I can use my computer all the way to the US tomorrow.
Business trip again. This time a training week where we are learning about some new IT-based tools in preparation for our trip next week. It was a long but interesting day and interesting to meet the whole Swedish delegation. In the evening we headed out to our hotel – a castle on the country-side. A really luxurious feeling to walk up the big stairs with yellow lights shining on the snow-covered ground. Minus 6 degrees centigrade so it was a nice winter evening. Now, I am trying out the 3G coverage using my cell phone and it works just fine!
This evening we saw a really strange movie called Aaltra which is translated to “Angry men without legs” Swedish. It is about two French farmes who start fighting on top of their agriculture machine and end up injuring both of their legs. They decide to go to the manufacturer in Finland to demand some economic compensation…So it becomes a very strange road-movie about these bitter and rather mean men…
Today I had laser treatment again. The cold weather made it a bit more difficult to get my car up and running but it has a soothing effect after being burned by a laser 🙂 However, the treatment starts with an hour on the bed with a special cream to reduce the pain in my face. After that it was time for the laser and today we tried a another machine which blow really cold air with one nozzle and the laser in the other. Strangely enough it was more painful to get so cold than the actual stings from the laser. In the end, it seem to have a good effect and I was less sore than the other times.
We are going to see the Swedish Minister of Justice (Attourney General for those in the US) and talk about the recent development regarding the law that supposed to protect people for being harassed for being homo- or bisexual in public print media and television. The recent verdict by the Supreme Court have cause a very dangerous situation for LGBT-people becuase it has been interpreted that as long as you are quoting the Bible you can do anything and get away with it. A recent example is an homepage where famous LGBT-people here in Sweden have been threatened to death by strictly using Bible citations. It will be really interesting to see how they have analyzed the situation and how to move forward from this. I will of course also stress the importance of including gender identity and expression in the law.
Hmm…it sometimes feels a bit embarrassing to be affected by all those small things around us but I guess most of us do. It is just that different people see different needs to tell others about it. Anyway it is interesting to observe people around me. Even though I guess most people (at work) are aware about my transition process and some even heard it from me directly there is some kind of “first reaction”. It is like people struggle really hard to show that they are not showing anything, or something like that. Today a person suprised me by just out of the blue telling me “you are so beautiful!” and before I think she had just looked skeptic when she met me. It turned put that she had not recognized by at all at first and that is something that I sometimes just forget. I mean I still feel like my old self but of course I look rather different know. Anyway, kind words keep dropping in to my inbox and every word means a lot!